This is the verse that is displayed on my app tonight. Trust in the Lord. That statement is one of the hardest to live by. We are born with free will and with free will comes the mentality that we are to fix our problems ourselves. I am learning and beginning to understand that many times it is not possible which leads to more depression, anger, anxiety and hopelessness. I want to take another step toward leaning on Faith. Things began to unravel in late October in my personal life. It hurt so bad that I began neglecting my other responsibilities. Thankfully I have a great store manager that kept things flowing while I came to grips. But the worse part was the anxiety. I suffered two major anxiety attacks in two weeks. The second caused physical pain that landed me in the emergency room. Following those episodes I could not stand that feeling anymore so I called my doctor who is always amazing and supportive…and a bit demanding. I asked for an anti-anxiety medication that could be used only as needed but still be effective. She hooked me up and it works! But I find myself needing way too much. Therefore I am giving my anxiety and fear of loss to God. At this moment I am kneeling in front of my Woodstove and I am placing the entire bottle into the fire including the refill label. I hate pharmaceuticals as it is so this gives me a sense of joy to trade these in for God’s healing and solution. I pray each and everyone has a blessed day and that each day brings you happiness and closeness to your loved ones. #GiveItToGod

Pretty nervous about this one…..