Having faith is hard. We expect immediate response. I lack patience. I struggle to understand other perspectives sometimes. I do know my current personal issues are known by some and I know they are praying for my wife and I. I just wish I could feel some contentment knowing this. It does not make me any less grateful for the thoughts, prayers and words of encouragement. Its just hard to perceive giving my troubles to God and then waiting. I feel I need to be doing something….anything. So much that is sacred and important to me hangs in the balance.